If you have ever asked for a cookie and had someone hand it to you, only to snatch it away at the last moment then you will realize that you have been given a false hope.
You wanted that cookie so bad and you were so happy that you thought you were getting it and then you were crushed with disappointment when your cookie was taken from you before you got to bite it.
I am refering of course to something entirely different from a cookie that was snatched away from me, but you should get the point.
Its not that i am craving cookies right now but i am craving the love of my life who understands me and would be able to say something to me other then "apply".
I have come to abhore that word. Because its not for lack of applying that i have yet to find a job. Its lack of availability that is causing me to be in this predicament. Yes, yes, some people will say it is all my fault and i should have thought it through more thoroughly before I just up and walked out. However, Could you stand to stay in a place that made you cry because of the injustice of what you were accused of? I personally could not bring myself to stay as i happen to dislike crying at work.
Yes it was my fault for walking out. But i blame the injustice on the manager.
The store manager(not the manager i accuse) said they would be willing to put me back up front on a register if I was interested. I am diliberating that. I'm not quite sure that I would be able to go back there. However, i am not quite sure how long I would be at any job i would currently hope to get. Who in thier right mind would want to drive two hours to get to work?
But more about that some other time. I now have some things to do.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Long talks...
Did you ever call someone because you wanted to tell them something? Did you ever tell yourself before you called them that you would only talk to them for a little bit? Did that ever hold true? Here's how i can answer those....YES, YES and NO!!!
You see that's what happens when I call my dad. I tell myself that we are only going to talk for a little bit because I want to tell him something. Then after I tell him we will chat for a few minutes and then hang up. That never happens. Now don't get me wrong I love my father to death. But, he likes to talk more then I do. It doesn't matter if you make a comment every now and then either. Because whether you acknowledge you are listening or not, he still talks. The most repetitive stuff comes out of his mouth too. Like all the stuff he said when it was big big news the first time he told you, its still big big news the fifth time because he doesn't really remember that he has already told you.
I am blaming it on age because honestly he was not ever that repetitive until about a year or so ago. Poor papa. I guess I have to remember that my parents are getting up there in age. I mean, heck, I'm 22 already. I am having trouble grasping that fact as well.
I am just hoping that I do not become as repetitive as others have when I get older. That would make me a very boring person and I am not very into being boring.
You see that's what happens when I call my dad. I tell myself that we are only going to talk for a little bit because I want to tell him something. Then after I tell him we will chat for a few minutes and then hang up. That never happens. Now don't get me wrong I love my father to death. But, he likes to talk more then I do. It doesn't matter if you make a comment every now and then either. Because whether you acknowledge you are listening or not, he still talks. The most repetitive stuff comes out of his mouth too. Like all the stuff he said when it was big big news the first time he told you, its still big big news the fifth time because he doesn't really remember that he has already told you.
I am blaming it on age because honestly he was not ever that repetitive until about a year or so ago. Poor papa. I guess I have to remember that my parents are getting up there in age. I mean, heck, I'm 22 already. I am having trouble grasping that fact as well.
I am just hoping that I do not become as repetitive as others have when I get older. That would make me a very boring person and I am not very into being boring.
Hello all!
So this is to be my first blog ever on this new blog site.
Wow, Hello everyone :)
At the moment it is about 3:30 am and i have yet to get sleepy or tired or even want to go to sleep. I think its because i know that Joshua is now awake and could possibly be getting online at any moment.
Let me tell you waiting up for him is not something that is planned. I just do it automatically. I know that he is awake and could be going on a mission and it just make me want to stay up and see if i can catch him online just to say "i love you and miss you".
Yes, this may sound silly to you, however, to me it is the most normal thing in the world. But that is what happens when the love of your life is off in another country fighting in a war. Its funny but I did not ever think that I would fall for someone that would one day go off to war. I was pretty sure that I didn't want anything to do with the military at all. But now that I am in it i am finding that its not as bad as it seemed. I am also finding out that the military wife can be a dangerous person to cross! Look out for the army wives because you never know what will happen!
I am happy to announce that while I do miss my love with all my heart, he will be home in a few short weeks. I just have to wait a few more weeks (which is about 3) and then I get to fly into his arms the minute i see him! I am about jumping up and down with excitement.
Wow, Hello everyone :)
At the moment it is about 3:30 am and i have yet to get sleepy or tired or even want to go to sleep. I think its because i know that Joshua is now awake and could possibly be getting online at any moment.
Let me tell you waiting up for him is not something that is planned. I just do it automatically. I know that he is awake and could be going on a mission and it just make me want to stay up and see if i can catch him online just to say "i love you and miss you".
Yes, this may sound silly to you, however, to me it is the most normal thing in the world. But that is what happens when the love of your life is off in another country fighting in a war. Its funny but I did not ever think that I would fall for someone that would one day go off to war. I was pretty sure that I didn't want anything to do with the military at all. But now that I am in it i am finding that its not as bad as it seemed. I am also finding out that the military wife can be a dangerous person to cross! Look out for the army wives because you never know what will happen!
I am happy to announce that while I do miss my love with all my heart, he will be home in a few short weeks. I just have to wait a few more weeks (which is about 3) and then I get to fly into his arms the minute i see him! I am about jumping up and down with excitement.
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